So, here I am.

My name is Amber. I'm 29 years old. I am the wife of 11 years to the nerdiest, sweetest and most caring man ever. Our king size bed is crowded with two pugs and three cats. We like it that way. I love photography. Well, I love all art. I just finished up my bachelor's degree in painting/drawing and graphic design with a minor in art history at the University of Nevada at Las Vegas. Most importantly, I am Jasper's mom.

I'm not new to journal style writing. While in person I am a woman of few words, I can't seem to shut up on paper. I would like to use this blog as an outlet for myself but I also hope that sharing my experiences may help others. I am guilty of being a silent viewer of YouTube vlogs concerning fertility. Because of this, I am aware that there is a very supportive and compassionate community out there and I think I am ready to participate.

This journey is not so openly discussed with family and friends. Some people just don't want to hear about your tracking system regarding BBT's and how exciting it is to see that mid-month drop. Loss is even less acceptable of a discussion topic. Nobody knows what to say. They usually say nothing at all as a result.

I intend for this blog to be a raw, unedited documentation as well as a place to reminisce my past decade of experience. I would love for it to be interactive, exchanging support and perhaps advice. So if you're up for it, be a fly on my computer screen. I will take you along as I write my story of infertility, loss and whatever comes next...